Today is the day, what I know I've been waiting/dreading when this whole deal storyline came around just almost exactly a year ago. I say dreading because I'm not gonna lie. I know that tonights episode is probably going to make me cry and make me really upset. Its probably gonna be like when I saw Devils Trap or All Hell Part 1 for the first time, where when it ended my mouth was literally hanging open and I was just staring at the TV like "That's all I get?"

Although this time, yeah. There'll prolly be more crying. I just...yeah. I said this on Winchester Radio last week, but I just do not cry over TV shows and movies and such. Books sometimes, but still, not too often at all. The OTH school shooting episode made me cry. But other than that, I think Supernatural is the only show thats gotten so much emotion out of me. I don't know how they do it, but when their characters are going through something really bad, I really feel it.

Needless to say, this week podcast should be quite interesting. I have a feeling me and Clarity may just end up going back and forth a lot of the time about how much we love Sam and Dean because Supernatural can make you feel that way often.

God I hope today goes by fast. But I don't think it will. I only work til 12 today and I might go to the mall with my sister (if her car isn't being weird) so thats a little bit time. BUT THEN the whole afternoon will be just open. My roommate won't get home til like 730 or something so anyone who has suggestions of a way to occupy myself till then? Let me know.

P.S. I don't know if anyone on my flist watches Smallville beyond "Hey this show is weird and kinda bad, but its on before Supernatural and I'm bored so I'll watch it" but Allison Mack aka Chloe aka a lot of the reason why people watch that show still is coming back next year.

so my sister is alright. she's scared to be at her apartment alone at night now, so when her roommate goes home next week for a week, she's gonna be at my apartment or i'll be at hers on my days off. i hate that my sister had to go through this. she apparently left me this message i never listened to but she really doesn't want me to because it was when she was really scared and terrified right after they ran out of their apartment and was trying to find someone. AUAUAUAUAUUSHDSUHUSHUHGHGljsladjlKDJklsjldjasldjasldsakla.

So um. Is it Thursday yet? No. Damn. I was hoping the space-time continuum would suddenly speed up.

so. i didn't work til 2pm today, so i was still awake tonight talking to an online hanson friend I just made when I look down and happen to see that my mom just called me at 301AM. That is never a good thing.

Turns out, someone was trying to break into my sisters apartment and she had called me from a cops phone but I didn't answer cuz it was on vibrate and on the floor. Plus I was listening to my Ipod. Anyway, my mom answered because thats what moms do and they're out there now at my parents. My sister and her roommate. I am so incredibly thankful right now that my mom gave my sister her old car. I don't want to think about how tonight/this morning would have gone if they were just on foot.

They managed to grab the car keys before they ran out the back door and the cops were gonna go back and look into their apartment, but they don't even have a phone. everything was left in there.

My sisters roommate is going home since school is ending for awhile and so she might stay at my apartment for a few days just to feel safe. Sounds good to me, I told her there'd be no problem and no, there is not. If my roommate had a problem with this, I think there would be a huge blowout fight to end all fights. Just..fuck. I don't want to think of my sister ever being that scared or being in that kind of danger.

-did another podcast today for Winchester Radio. But then the switchboard suddenly disconnected me and when I called in, they couldn't hear me. So I'm not there for the last little bit.

-Hanson owns me still. They were supposed to do a radio show in Philadelphia and ended up cancelling. They let the fans know that they found out the DJs were doing this contest of trying to get Hanson fans to do crazy and perverse things to meet them. They called them about it and they wouldn't even own up to it at first but eventually found out that the DJs are babies. They told the DJs that they wouldn't set foot into their radio station unless they did whatever the fans did and the DJs are pussies to the highest order and wouldn't, so they didn't show up.

-thats some crazy respect for their fans right there. i love that my favorite band will yell at idiot DJs who want girls to take their clothes off and defend women.

-Yup, still in love with Supernatural. Just felt like putting that out there. I have no idea what I'm gonna do with myself on May 15th.

-My work has these horrible new gloves that are kinda akin to plastic bags on your hands. They don't stay put. The best part is that I think I'm somehow allergic to them or something. On both my arms I get these red spots that itch and just feel..off..somehow whenever I wear them.

-I hate the Yankees.

I am so in love with Supernatural sometimes it hurts a little bit.

I also kinda want to have Jeremy Carvers babies.

That is all.

All in all, Supernatural just makes me so damn happy. Even when the episodes are sad,  like it looks like next weeks will be, I am always so happy to talk about it and discuss it and just..yeah. Supernatural is my happy TV place and Hanson is my happy music place. Both of those things are around right now and I couldn't be happier when it comes to that. Now if only the rest of my life didn't suck.

One thing I'm really interested about for tomorrow is the ratings. Last time the ratings were so huge for Jus In Bello- 3.2 million for those who don't remember, 3.7 mill after DVR numbers were counted in 2 weeks later. Their rerun last week had 2.12 million, so I'm hoping they're good numbers again.

I FUCKING HATE MY JOB. I am starting to get seriously worried about even having one there. This is completely ridiculous. I hate my store director so much right now.

But..I did buy a new Hanson shirt that's purple and has lyrics of a song that I don't even know yet! Bwahaha. Hanson sends out these membership kits every year with 3 new songs and pics from their latest tour and whatnot. But it was a Hanson shirt that was PURPLE. I love purple.

Plus I bought Kate Voegele and Stephen Kellogg and the Sixers songs on Itunes. BTW All must listen to them, espacially Stephen. Any band that plays "I've Had the Time of my Life" for their last tour date in Milwaukee and then DOES THE LIFT deserves your 9 dollars off of Itunes.

Oh! Plus I got my roommate an awesome birthday present. She loves One Tree Hill and Peyton on that show, so I got her a shirt that says "I love P. Sawyer" Simple, consise, but I'm sure she'll love it. I'll buy her some liquor, too.

I just read the new Kripke interview at TVGuide.com- btw for spoilerphobes there aren't any. The most he says is that he really loves the next episode at the bottom.

Anyway, I must rant about the network right the fuck now. In his interview, Kripke mentions how the network wanted their demon war to be more epic and bigger. They told them that would mean more money and they just said to go with it, so they did. They had 200 plus demons come out of the gate, made it a big friggin deal. They made Magnificent Seven and it was way overbudget and the network freaked out, told them they can't do that and told them to fix it.

So let me get this straight. YOU. told them to make the show more epic, so they did. They told you it would be more money, and then when it did cost more money, you told them to make the war epic but also not spend as much money? WHAT THE FUCK CW? W.T.F. This is also added on that next year they have an even lesser budget and they didn't order any extra episodes next season, just the regular 22.

It is not Supernaturals fault that your other "cool new awesome shows!>?!" don't have all these people watching it. Its not Supernaturals fault that people have realized that Smallville just isn't good anymore (espacially when you give everything away in the commercials) and doesn't have a bigger audience. MAYBE if you would have realized Supernaturals potential in season 2 it would have a bigger audience. It just seems to me now that Supernatural is getting punished because the network isn't as fantastic as they thought it would be.

Yes I'm rather angry about this.

So. Supernatural is back on Thursday and that makes me so FUCKING HAPPY THANK YOU TV GODS!!!

Winchester Radio did a two and a half hour podcast (no lie there) yesterday just speculating about Deans deal, Bela, Ruby, Bobby, everything, including what music we want to be the montage. So if you wanna listen, go ahead! P.S. if you do, sorry for my coughing. If only I had the power to make that stop.

Also? So everyone who reads this knows that one week ago, I was in Green Bay for my last Hanson concert, 4 in all. It makes me hella sad still that its over, but what can you do, right? Anyways, so last night they had a show in Royal Oaks. Dunno what state that is, but I'm thinking more east. They were delayed getting on the stage because there was someone with a bullet in the front row. Woah. Scary. But this is the part that makes my heart happy, besides that they found the person who was a cop off duty and no one got hurt. Hanson leaves messages for their fans if you're part of their fan club- which like 90% of their fans are. Its called the "From Us to You" section. A lot of it is video of them being silly on the road and random moments. This one said how they thought that Hanson fans would protect them. As they put it, they would never want to be on the wrong end of an angry Hanson fan. They are right there. I'll argue with anyone over them and defend them to the ends of the earth and I know that the 3 shows I was in 2nd row, if someone was trying to hurt them, everyone up there would have taken them down together.

But to have them go on stage and for half the show not know if someone is gonna hurt them and just completely trust their fans that they'll stop whoever it is? That is some amazing trust and faith. They do things like this and it is really really easy for me to explain why I love them so much.

I've been pretty quiet lately. Sorry for that. I've been too busy coughing up my lung onto the floor to blog, I guess. Plus all I want to blog about lately is Hanson, and none of you people know what I'm talking about with that.

1. Your name spelled backwards?
nonnahS

2. Last incoming call on your phone?
my mom

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
im just gonna go with hanson

4. What's your favorite restaurant?
I dunno. I like Chilis, Fridays, Applebees, those types. Dennys used to be my favorite- my friends and I used to go there seriously everyday.

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
A year ago

6. Britney Spears is a skank. Agree or disagree?
Disagree...for the moment. If she doesn't get her act together she could start acting like one

7. How many kids do you want?
Don't know if I even want kids

8. Type of music you dislike most?
I don't really like thrasher metal at all

9. What was the last thing you bought?
Mountain dew

10. Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
As in motorcycle? Yeah, Aunt and Uncle have them. They're so much fun.

11. Does someone have a crush on you?
Probably not

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
I can never do the prank calls because I just start laughing, but I can be there!

13. Listening to music?
Right now? No.

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
Ohh either one would be this rush I bet.

15. What shoes are you wearing right now?
Bare feet.

16. Do you have a garden?
I don't think Milwaukee lets apartment buildings have gardens

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
Zits

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
i do

19. Bath or Shower, morning or night?
Shower in the afternoon or night.

20. Hello or goodbye?
Hello

21. Favorite pizza toppings?
pepperoni

22. Chips or Popcorn?
ohh sun chips.

23. Favorite color?
Purple

24. What did your last text message you received say?
ugh I don't want to look. But I think it was from my sister saying how she misses Hanson

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
FUCK.NO.

26. Orange Juice or apple juice?
Apple Juice.

27. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
My mom and sister

28. What did the last text message that you sent say?
me agreeing with her

29. Lucky number?
16

30. Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
My mom had a garden last summer and we ate stuff out of that.

31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Yeah I was in softball and soccer when I was younger and was on some good teams

32. Are you a good cook?
I really don't think I am

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
I don't drive but I do

34. Do the Chinese really use cats in their food?
I'm pretty sure they use cat in something. Or was that mongolian food?

35. Sprite or 7-Up?
Neither! They're both just sugar water

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
No

37. Last thing you ate?
Uhh. Yesterday I had some pop tarts.

38. Ever thrown up in public?
Do you call your high school public? Then yes.

39. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
The looovveeee baby.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
I believe you can see a person and just connect right away

41. Think fast, what do you like right now?
Hansonnn.

42. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
its been awhile. Probably my Nana when she was still alive

43. Where were you on Valentine's day?
At home with my roommate

44. Last time you laughed?
Um, yesterday I did or something

45. What's your favorite animal?
I can't choose! I love cats and dogs way too much.

46. What was the name of your first pet?
Misty. Aw Misty I miss you. Cat me and my sister grew up with, died when I was 12/13.

47. Who is the second to last person to call you?
My dad prolly

48. Is there anything going on this weekend?
Um. Winchester Radio is doing another podcast. Dunno if my voice is gonna make it through the whole thing though.

49. How are you feeling right now?
Like crap on a stick

50. What do you think about the most?
Its a tie really between Hanson and Supernatural. My brain switches between those 2 things all the time

51. What do you think of the person that posted this before you?
Carina is very cool.

52. Who is MOST likely to repost this survey?
whoever wants to

Hey all! I am back from my Hanson Trek. I haven't been online since last Tuesday! Wow. Only Hanson would make me forget about the online community, besides their own of course. I won't go into what the concerts were like now, seeing as its 512AM and I had maybe 3 hours of sleep last night. I really should have asked off for today. Oh well!

ANY-WAY if you got something you want me to know about, link it to me in the comments!

Now that these cons are done til the summer, I wonder what we'll all talk about?

Well this is one thing! Jensen is doing a movie this summer, as well. A horror one too, which is basically a story of him coming home for the first time in 10 years after 22 people were killed on Valentines night and trying to hook up with his first love and being a murder suspect. The article is
here . I'm personally excited because the movie is coming out on January 23rd, which is 3 days before my birthday next year! Plus its only like 3 weeks before Jareds and really, there's not a whole lot that'll be better than having an excuse to go to the movies and see the J2 in starring roles in the movies. I know some may not like that they're horror movies, but I don't care! They're getting to be lead roles in movies!! This can only be good for the show.

From what I've read online and what my friends at EyeCon said, it seems that the guests this time were incredibly approachable, which I really like. I've read so many stories online about how so and so was in an elevator or the lobby or the bar or something and one of the cast was in there and they sat there and talked with them about whatever. I love it!

One thing that made me be very extra special happy was that Jim Beaver said somewhere (I don't remember where I read it) that its a possibility that we may get an extended Season 4. He said its possible we may get an extra 8 episodes. 30 eps in one season! Even if we got one or two more I'd be happy so I really hope that works out!

So...after some initial issues, I'll just say, at Eye Con Winchester Radio is going to broadcast there tomorrow morning at 1130AM Central time during the photo ops, where basically the guests can wander over and talk to my 2 wonderful cohosts whenever they want. I'll be not there, seeing as I work tomorrow. You know, any other week I would probably just call in tomorrow morning because I already feel like straight up ass.

But you see, this week I'm not working at all from Wednesday-Sunday. My sister and I are going on the Massive Hanson Trek of 2008. They're coming to Wisconsin 4 times - in La Crosse, Milwaukee, Madison and Green Bay - and we got tickets for all of them. We've been looking forward to this for a few months and I cannot wait. For new friends out there, they are bar none my favorite band. I cannot really describe it. My sister and I have tried to explain to our roommates why since most are always so surprised to see Hanson as our favorite band. But we can't really. They just kind of see into our souls, I suppose.

ANY-WAY anyone interested should definitely listen to Winchester Radio if for nothing else to get an idea of what this con is like right from 2 wonderful fangirls.

Also? janglyjewels has the best luck! I am so happy for her, she totally deserves it!

I have off of work tomorrow so I'm hella excited. Now, if only it was a NORMAL FRIGGIN THURSDAY and Supernatural was actually around. New sides were actaully released tonight and they seriously were about 3 pages long. I didn't read them, I gots connections, yo. But they give nothing away about the episode. They're actually pretty funny to me.

Since when has Zac Efron been so incredibly gay? I just saw a pic of him at Andies journal and HOLY FUCK ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. Okay, yeah it is funny.

Jared isn't gonna be at Eyecon til Sunday and really, I am so not mad. I'm not going but Winchester Radio is going to be there in the form of the other 2 hosts besides me, so we may have interviews with some people there or it might just be me listening to them tell me what the Con is like. He's filming Supernatural though. I dare anyone to be mad at him for that.

But! I'm so excited for Jim Beavers talk on Saturday. I am so incredibly biased towards him now hahahahaha.

Today at work I burned myself and some of the goddamn skin came off.

So smidgy06 is on LJ here and she is so fucking awesome. She is hilarious, always makes me laugh with all the pictures and links she can find of our boys. Plus she makes kick ass icons, like the one I'm using right now. But the thing I don't get? She doesn't realize that she is this amazing! I love how she loves Sandy and Danneel just as much or perhaps more than Jared and Jensen. I love how she can find Buffy quotes that are freakishly relevant to Supernatural. I love her comments on One Tree Hill. I love it all!

I hope she has an amazing and wonderful birthday. I heard she'll be getting drunk and watching Angel. Really, that sounds like the perfect birthday to me!

You know, lightning is really friggin bright at 430am. It kinda scared the bejesus out of me.




Dude. So theres this big window in my room where I can see to the other apartment building next to mine and one of the people over there ALWAYS has this lamp on. Its so weird. Every time I'm in my room, no matter how late or early or midday or whatever, its always on. Do they ever sleep?!

So I don't have the graphic, but I saw some of my flist pimping Gleeweek. It is an awesome comm that everyone should join. I love reading all the stories if nothing else, plus its the frakking HIATUS PEOPLE AND I"M REALLY BORED.

Today was alright with work, actually. Inventory was today, which can suck beyond all reason but today? Not so bad. I am very confident in my counting skillz.

I'm doing the Podcast again today in about an hour at 530PM. If you're hella bored and feel like listening/calling in to a Supernatural podcast, go ahead! The site is here if anyone is interested. We're technically supposed to be talking about Skin, but I'm pretty sure we're gonna end up talking about anything we like about Supernatural because thats what happened last week.

Today was kinda like a trainwreck. At least the beginning of it was pretty friggin bad. Started work at 6AM which always mean that I'm tired. Theres like...different levels of tired. I know that sounds crazy, but no matter what time I go to bed, I'm always a little tired when you're up that early. Sometimes my eyes sting I'm so tired and I run into people/things and drop/cut/burn myself more often at work I'm so out of it. Today wasn't one of those days, but I of course got a sinus headache-y thing happening when I was at work all damn day. Now too. booo.

ANY-WAY I was kinda dreading today because I was by myself for my entire shift. Doing two peoples work when it just me is really never fun, espacially when its cooking i.e. making all the hot food and I'm not very confident in that part of the Deli yet. When I first got to work and already felt crappy, I go to Meat department to get both kinds of chicken (rotisserie and the cut up pieces to bread for fried chicken) and OF COURSE the Deli boxes are literally on the very bottom of a pallot that is also being blocked by another meat pallot. For those who don't know what a pallot is, its basically a big pile of boxes lined up when a grocery store gets an order in. So I had to move a lot of 40 pound boxes of stuff from the Meat department because they suck ass and they never help us when they do that to Deli.

Then my store director was a dickhead and cut more hours from the schedule for next week because he's evil. Things were just going wrong. Then right before I left, it started snowing sideways with the wind just in time for me to walk home.

THANK THE JESUS LORD ITS OVER!

Oh plus I kept forgetting it was Thursday. I miss Sammy and Dean.

Hey all. I had a good day today. Today was my Easter pretty much. I went and met up with my school and then went home to see the doggies again with my sister this time. Then my mom took me to Sams Club and I got enormous boxes of Pop Tarts, Pringles, Red Baron Deep Dish mini Pizzas and my sister got some stuff too and then Chili's as well. Yuummmm.

AAAAANNNNDDDD...now that I'm in a good mood, I'm going to go back to work tomorrow and it'll all go away.